- Practice Yoga 25x. That's roughly every other week. I don't actually like yoga very much, but that's because I had only tried it a few times, in setting that were not at all relaxing to me. Now that I've discovered Bikram Yoga, I think I might be in love. And so I will invest my time (and money) into figuring out how to relax... and stretch my mind [and body] into a new realm.
- Buy and wear Red Lipstick. I have had this as a goal before. I did buy it, but the color looked different in real light than it did in the store and I hate hate hated it. I intend to take my time, perhaps the entirety of 2010, to find my perfect red. And maybe, just maybe, I'll wear it out on NYE 2011.
- Leave MN at least 2x. So, before Justin and I took our mini-trip to San Francisco last year, I hadn't left the state in 4 years. That's pathetic. 2009 took me to CA, CO, and AZ and I loved every second I was able to explore new places. I'm excited to see where 2010 will lead me.
- Drink 30,000 oz of water. For the last 4-5 months, my water intake has been horrendous. Embarrassing even. 30k ounces over the year would be roughly 82oz per day, which will be my base number. I KNOW that staying fully hydrate makes me feel [and look!] so much better, so why deny it?
- Read 12 books. Hey, I love to read. It sucks that I have to make it a goal, but it's hard to prioritize reading time over the 9389482394 other things I have to do during the day. It feeds in to my over all goal of learning to relax.
- Save $1,000. Seems like a simple goal, but I've basically been living paycheck to paycheck this year. I was saving $200 per month, but then my car broke. Then my computer broke. Then I took 3 vacations. Then I bought Christmas presents. There was always something eating away and I already have a very tight budget (and a very very very small paycheck). This year I need to rebuild my savings account, because the number in there now is no where near the place I've always kept it [minimum 6 months living expenses]. I need to keep the goal low and manageable so I don't feel like a failure if I don't meet it, and also so that I feel like a winner when I double, triple or quadruple it!
- Get my sewing machine fixed. This is something that's been on the back burner for nearly 5 years. I allowed an old roommate to use my sewing machine, she broke it, never repaired it, and we're not exactly "friends" anymore after we had to kick her out of the house. I never ended up fixing it, and sewing was always one of my favorite [relaxing] hobbies.
- Take at least 1 bike camping trip to Stillwater. For those of you who aren't Minnesotan, Stillwater is a beautiful small town on the river. Its full of antique shops and dive bars and miles of beautiful MN forests. It's only 40 miles from Minneapolis, and the camping trip is totally do-able (in fact I've done it before, more than once).
- Run a 10 mile race. I've done the 5ks, I will run a 10k, but I need to run a 10 mile race. I need a running goal. I hate running so much, but I also secretly love it if it means I'm going to get a shirt and a bib and my name posted somewhere with my time. Mostly, I need this to prove to myself that I am capable of running 10 miles. 2 years ago, I couldn't run 1.
- Make Goal Weight. The big one.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
- Drink tons of water. At least 120 oz per day.
- Sweat it out. Attend Circuit Training, Boxing, Bikram Yoga, Spin and Step class this week.
- Track. Whether using Weight Watchers or SparkPeople.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
Last night, in the midst of finishing a work project before officially declaring VACATION, my computer crashed. Its dead.
Today, I'm buying a Mac.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
I'm making peace with the fact that this is just where I am right now. If I could give more, I would be. It's been a really rough couple of months. That sounds like a big fat excuse, but honestly there are a lot of factors working against me, so the fact that I've made it through 4 weeks with less than 5lbs packed on is pretty amazing to me. I feel good about that.
I'm extremely happy to report that the Bikram Yoga class was a huge hit. I adored it, I'll be going back for sure. It is the PERFECT addition to my routine for an active rest day. I loved the instructor and the class time complemented my schedule. I'm going to buy a 5 pack of classes and go every Wednesday (when I get back from Arizona).
In Arizona news, I just found out last night that Sedona is apparently the spiritual vortex of North America. I feel stupid for not knowing that and planning a trip there. Also, apparently everyone else in the known universe knew that... but I didn't even know Sedona existed until someone suggested we go there... so. I guess I'm just not up on my vortex news. I probably never will be.
In other other non-vortex news, I was really hard on myself all day yesterday (aside from dealing with stress by yoga). The Yoga seemed to detox me and recenter me (I never believed that before) and I handled my gain at the meeting pretty well. I didn't get too upset over it, I mean... .6? Come on. But once I got home - tired- run down from the week - a stack of paperwork waiting for me.. I rebelled. I started making the popcorn brittle I needed to bring to the Holiday Party at work today, then I started thinking about work, then I started mindless eating dark chocolate chips until I felt like I was going to throw up.
I'm in a funk.
I'm not waiting until I get to Arizona, but I know this trip will be a giant propellant for me. Having structured meals, getting lots of outdoor exercise - it will renew my injured soul/confidence/etc.
The popcorn brittle, by the way, did not turn out well when I worked with the Cooking Light recipe, but when I tweaked it and made it my own by adding Dark Chocolate Chips and coarse sea salt - it was amazing.
I will post the recipe tonight.
Did you try any new holiday themed desserts this year? Were they everything you expected them to be?
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
I woke up on the slight right side of the bed this morning. No good moods or bad, just trying to prepare for what will certainly be an incredibly busy day.
It's Wednesday though, which means weighing in on the scale and weighing in on my TOTS (tasks of total steadfastness) for the week. Let's review:
TOTS for the week of 12/09 - 12/16
•Track Everything. - YES
•Plan Tomorrow's Meals Today. -YES
•SWEAT. -YES YES AND YES
•READ. - YES
So, it appears I did well with my goals, but I'm really just giving myself credit for doing what I could. Last week I put in 53.5 hours at work and this week I've already put in more than 18. I'm completely overtired, but happy that - with careful planning - I was able to get all of our Christmas shopping done yesterday afternoon, as well as brainstorm an idea for the gifts we have to hand make (which we obviously left until the last second).
I did track everything, even when I binged. Which I did this week. Having the meal plan helped, and I did follow it all day long. It was only at night, once the plan ended, that I decided I could go back for more. However, last night I divulged this information to my boxing teacher who wasn't aware I had lost more than 50lbs and was trying to lose more. He told me to try eating my biggest meal in the middle of the day, which would actually work for someone like me. I split time between working on site at my organization and working from home. I typically leave the office at Noon and eat lunch at home. Because I've been working out in the evenings, I'm typically not even hungry at night when I get home from the gym, but because I'm from the midwest and because I have food issues, I know I need to eat dinner - and dinner here means a protein and two vegetables.... that could easily be a light meal, but it never is. So... the new game plan is going to be integrating more protein into my afternoon meal and possibly breaking it up into TWO meals, and attempting to eat a light dinner.
I definitely SWEAT it out this week. I totalled more than 4k calories burned! TAKE THAT.
I also READ my books daily. I am drawing so much inspiration from these. They aren't going to solve my problems, only I can do that, but I'm taking away some fantastic ideas. I only hope I feel ready to implement them soon.
TOTS for the week of 12/17 - 12/23
- Have the best time ever on vacation.
That's right, I leave for Arizona this weekend for a hiking trip with my Honey. We'll be making our own breakfasts and lunches and eating dinner out. I pledge to eat intuitively this week, REALLY listening to my body and finding my sated point again.
Today I'm trying something new. Bikram Yoga. I don't even like regular yoga, and I really really don't like being hot, so all signs are pointing to me hating this, but I'm going to have a VERY open mind about it. A friend invited me, I'm interested, and I definitely feel like I need to detox. I look at Wednesdays (the beginning of my Weight Watchers week) as a new beginning, and I think this yoga class will help with that. It's also going to assist me in giving an unreasonably inaccurate scale number, which is fine with me.
We'll be hitting the mats at 4:30pm, ending at 6:00pm, and then I'll be changing and going straight to my Weight Watchers meeting where I will weigh in with (most likely) a nearly 3lb loss due to sweating out water. I won't be weighing in until the week after Christmas, so I'm interested to see if I can match that with actual weight loss by that time.
Have you ever been to hot yoga? What am I supposed to wear?
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
My partner/boyfriend/manfriend works nights most of the week which basically means the only creatures stirring in the house are me and sometimes the dog (who mostly just lays on the couch). I know no one is watching, no one will know if I eat a whole damn box of granola - especially if I hide the evidence. I've become a secret eater out of loneliness.
I've always kind of played the role of "I don't need help," "I'm tough," "I'm fine, I'll figure it out." But I guess I should just admit that I'm not. I'm not fine. I'm completely immersed in my routine because it keeps me from admitting that I have failed so many of my friendships. If I stay busy I can pretend I'm just "too busy" for social stuff right now, but I probably wouldn't have many invitations otherwise. And all of their lives go on without me, on to bigger and better things that I'm not celebrating with them, that I'm rarely even informed about. Maybe I'm eating to fill a need to be needed, or even wanted. I still think of food socially, even when I'm eating alone.
I know this all sounds so self-pitying and oh look at nic, trying to get attention... and maybe I am. This is hardly the forum for self discovery of this magnitude, and in fact it's quite embarrassing.
I'm embarrassed because I have very very few important people in my life.
I guess my New Year's Resolution will be trying to figure out how to salvage any of that, if it's even possible at this point.
Maybe I'll just move to Colorado.
Monday, December 14, 2009
This is a fault.
Family abuses it with little to no reciprocation. Friends do also.
That's not even why I'm anxious about the season. I've grown up quite a bit, as we often do when we get older (not all of us, mind you). Specifically in the last 2 years as I've changed myself on the outside, I've also made drastic changes within. I've learned to say "NO," and it's backlashed. I've also done quite a bit of emotional maturing, though no family members would agree.
The real problem is that I have been boxed in.
My family still sees me the way I was nearly 10 years ago: a bratty, selfish, immature snob. I'll admit that's who I was then, but it's very far from who I am now. I'm still bratty from time to time because, hey, who's not? However, I'm not "allowed" to be who I am now around family. People assume I'm feeling one way when it's completely the opposite. I find it very irritating, almost to the point of giving them the satisfaction of reverting back to bratty teenage status... but I don't.
I suppose this is a tangent of sorts, but it is one of the key reasons I overeat at holiday family functions. I'm trying not to talk. Trying not to say anything wrong so that family members don't have the opportunity to misinterpret it. I eat so I'll shut up.
I haven't yet found a constructive way to deal with this, but it's a goal and I plan to be very aware and mindful of it this year. I would like my family to really meet me. Learn about who I am now, but I suppose that really would need to be a willingness on their part to begin with. Truth is, I really just need to say something; address the problem. $10 says they have no idea I feel this way.
In other news, I just signed up for the Pound For Pound Challenge due to inspiration from The Broad Broad. She lives just across the state line from me, so we'll be supporting the same fantastic organization - one I work closely with in my professional life Second Harvest Heartland (in St. Paul, MN). I've pledged to lose 9 pounds and in exchange, people in my community will receive meals they so desperately need.
Why not join us in eating a little less to feed your community? Sign up!
Saturday, December 12, 2009
I haven't felt much like writing this week. I've been fully immersed in all of my new books and my new found motivation and steadfastness. I'm extremely proud of how well I've been eating this week as well as the fact that today is my 21st day of being smoke free! That's three weeks (hence the 333 significance).
Rebecca at Durch DICK und DUENN had a fabulous post on Friday that summed up a lot of what I'd been thinking about for the last few weeks (possibly months). I've been on this weight loss journey for a while now (2 years as of last Monday). I've accomplished a LOT (more than 50lbs lost)! Sure, it hasn't happened as quickly as a lot of other bloggers, but I'm more than satisfied with it. I figured out how to work the program to fit in to my life which is why I've maintained, gained, lost, and anything else that can happen on the scale. It's not yo-yo dieting so much as participating fully in the things I felt were important at the time and I wouldn't take them back if I could. It's been an amazing learning experience. I needed to fall all of those times so I could get back up and come away with an important lesson. It's not reasonable to count every calorie every day and hole up inside the house where cookie temptations can't get to me. That is not living. Life is full of cocktails, cupcakes and burgers.
I started this journey because I wanted to live a fuller life, and I'm doing just that.
And like Rebecca, I'm happy with my body right now. I don't look at the mirror and despise what I see, so naturally my motivations have changed as time goes on and weight comes off and muscles become more and more prominent.
For me, however, I must reach that goal weight. For a few reasons...
- I am not yet in a healthy weight range for my height and I would LOVE to see a "Normal" BMI. [mostly out of spite for insurance companies]
- I set a goal. I am not a quitter. I would really like to see this through and know I've accomplished something gigantic - exactly what I set out to do.
- I must reach my goal weight and maintain it in order to be a Weight Watchers leader, and this is something I really want the opportunity to do.
I know a lot of the people in my life are trying to be helpful or supportive of the struggle when they say "You probably don't need to lose those last 10lbs," or "You're already so much skinnier!" but that (to me) would be like walking back down Mt. Everest when you're 2 miles from the peak. You still climbed Mt. Everest, and that's an accomplishment in and of itself, but you didn't see it from that prideful peak. You robbed yourself of an incredible experience because you could see "most" of it from where you were. You never know what you're capable of until you just do more.
So, press on I will.
I have eaten 21 points (my daily target, like a caloric goal) exactly every day this week. I'm ecstatic. I'm hoping to treat myself to a little something special for dinner tomorrow night since I probably need the extra calories. I've had fantastic workouts this week and it really is satisfying to see the APs (activity points) pile up and still have that whole 35 point WPA (flex point - a bank of extras to use throughout the week if and however you choose) cushion. My head is absolutely on straight. Just for Today I've got it all together.
I can't imagine a point in my life where I wasn't striving for something better (weight loss or not), which is why I need to keep on keepin' on.
Are you really satisfied where you are or do you want more?
Thursday, December 10, 2009
I'm very happy to report some wonderful news from my Weight Watcher's meeting last night... a .2lb loss!
I'm sure some of you are like "Uhh... .2? Seriously? I could sneeze that out."
Well guess what nay-sayers... I can't. And it was hard for a giant number of reasons and that is why I am so proud of my adorable .2lb loss.
The scale is headed in the right direction again. I feel totally in control yet totally relaxed. It's so easy to forget how SATISFYING such small amounts can be (well.. normal amounts really) when you plan well and eat real food.
Speaking of which, I need some new REALLY fast meal ideas that are tasty and creative. What have you got for me?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
I set very simply TOTS (Tasks of Total Steadfastness) this last week. For those new or out of the loop, I quit smoking 17 days ago after smoking for more than 10 years. I'm kind of re-learning how to live in general, let alone re-learning how to look at food as more than something to shovel into my mouth in the absence of cigarettes.
So, last weeks TOTS were...
TOTS for the week of 12/2-12/8
•STOP at 21.
•Stay Smoke Free!
The only two I feel uncomfortable celebrating successes on are stopping at 21 and blogging. I did both the majority of the time, but not in the way that I wanted to. I stopped at 21 points 4/7 days this week but it was still due to poor planning and I never felt satisfied having to alter my dinner in a manner that suited the 2-3 points I had left for the night. I definitely need to make better plans. I also blogged, but not in the way I intended.
I'm setting simple TOTS again this week. I realize this morning that I am not taking this challenge seriously, but honestly, I can't right now. The best I can do is participate and just genuinely give it my all. The last 3 weeks of December are the busiest of the entire year for me at work. That, coupled with quitting smoking, trying to lose the 5lbs I've gained from quitting smoking and the additional 5 pounds I have to lose to meet my Weight Watchers goal weight, AND Christmas... it's all a little overwhelming.
Setting my TOTS each week gives me something to focus on, and I find this helpful during this busy and stressful time.
TOTS for the week of 12/09 - 12/16
- Track Everything. This is really beginning to be second nature again. Almost like an immediate reaction. I've tracked every binge I had in the last 2.5 weeks, which is something I definitely would have hidden from the tracker last year.
- Plan Tomorrow's Meals Today. We're going back to the meal plan. I'd like to eventually try to eat intuitively as an experiment, but I think I better save that for maintenance.
- SWEAT. 5-7 days a week. Considering building in rest days, but I don't really know how or when to do that. I almost always over eat on rest days... reflections on this coming soon.
- READ. All of those lovely self-help books I picked up on Sunday have been giving me some peaceful relaxation time with a mug of tea in my favorite chair. I've come to cherish this routine on a nightly basis and I want to keep it up. De-stressers mean I stuff less food in my mouth.
Simple simple goals, but sometimes the most basic stuff is the hardest to wrap your head around.
P.S. We got about 7" of snow last night. Winter is finally here!
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
I'm in awe of this number and eternally grateful for the opportunity to follow so many of YOU that it feels like a blessing to know that people read my rants, advice and struggles. Thank you for supporting me and allowing me to support you.
I just got out of the shower, which in the winter in Minnesota is a huge indulgence. Feeling warm in the midst of below freezing temperatures feels fantastic, as well as washing off the sweat of yet another fantastic workout at The Firm.
Now that I'm smoke free (16 days and counting!), I find that I have a lot more free time on my hands than previously thought. I am one of those high-stress people who thrives off being busy and ever-occupied. Stress, to me, is not always negative. I enjoy deadlines and hard work and tasks and other things that make me think and move. That's just how I operate.
Because I've found these outlets of time, I've been reading a lot more. It's something I tend to do more often in the winter also as there is less thrill in sitting around outside or going for walks in the evening.
Saturday afternoon I picked up a book I had sitting on the shelf for quite some time. My sister gave it to me in 2005, after I had won and then subsequently lost a battle with weight (and weight watchers) for the first time. I was looking for an easy way out and my sister, wanting to help, gave me the book French Women Don't Get Fat. I never read it.
And so it sat on my bookshelf... until that fateful day when I decided enough is enough and I'll try (read) anything that might spark inspiration to get back on track from the ridiculous amount of snacking and binging which has become the norm after quitting smoking.
I was hooked instantly. I love the idea of this book. I'm only about 115 pages in, but I've already taken a lot away from it. I believe it helped me through the pizza party on Saturday night. The book preaches about indulging, eating well, never filling up. True quality over quantity.
French women shop often, in season, and cook almost all meals - like me. I LOVE going to the market in the summer and fall (I'm in MN, remember) and to the Co-op during off seasons. I love making the most of the produce we have here when it's ripe and delicious and I certainly love good real food. The book encourages making an event out of eating a meal. Set the table, light a candle, use cloth napkins. Savor every bite. Never read or distract yourself while eating, focus entirely on the pleasure food brings.
I can certainly see how through this lifestyle you learn what you truly like and what you could take or leave. This helps you to select things in moderation and cut back when you have indulged. It also makes you feel sexy. I'm not kidding. All day, the way I've treated my food, my coffee, my tea... feels feminine. It feels special.
...it's a freaking Monday!
I highly recommend this book. I'm reading it and The End of Overeating simultaneously, and I find that extremely helpful considering that one of them is touting delicious full fat foods and the other is explaining precisely why those sorts of foods cause us to over eat, which in turn helps me savor them but realize the conspiracy that is making me want to continue far after I've reached a satisfactory point.
I'm headed to the table now to enjoy a very small, very light dinner. I had something large planned, but it turns out I'm truly not very hungry. I'm quite confident I'd be satisfied with just a mug of tea, but after tonight's workout I know I need to replenish just a bit and so I'm having 1 cup of spaghetti squash with delicious veggie spagsauce (peppers, onions, zucchini, mushrooms and basil).
Because it's going to be a long winter and I'm truly enjoying revisiting one of my favorite activities, help me grow my list by filling me in on some of your favorite inspiring or informative books?
+ Saturday night we went out for pizza with a few friends and all of our kids. With all the kids it's just easiest to get something like that - saves ordering entrees for everyone. I genuinely wasn't very hungry but still felt like indulging. I ordered a glass of wine and had a great time visiting with everyone while they ate their pizza. No pizza for me. Not a piece, not a morsel of anything. I knew I could wait until we got home to prepare myself something that I would enjoy.
+ Sunday we made it downtown to see Santa. [long story, but Saturday the line was too long, etc etc] I did not get a cookie at Mrs. Claus' Bakery. It's a tradition that has spanned nearly 30 years, but this year I broke it. Cookies are off limits and so they shall stay. Also, our family Santa picture this year is REALLY cute. It's fun to look over the last few years of pictures (we always sit in the same spots) and compare how BIG Eli is getting and how much smaller I am getting.
+ I am doing an excellent job having tea after meals as "dessert." I think I may be able to retrain my brain to not crave sweets after lunch and dinner this way and it's very exciting.
It feels great to be celebrating something again!
I treated myself to an early Christmas present at Barnes and Noble. I purchased 5 books, 2 of which I have wanted to read for a very long time. In fact, I've been on the waiting list through our Library system for more than 3 months, so I figured I might as well buy them. Buying books feels so indulgent to me. I really enjoy spending time in a book store, strolling the aisles, judging them by their covers. I can spend the most time in the cookbooks aisles. I bought a new low fat slow cooker book, the SkinnyTini's recipe book, a self-help relationship type book [self help is the other section I could spend my whole life in] as well as The End of Overeating and The 4 Day Win.
I started reading The End of Overeating last night and I'm hooked. I will be sure to review it when I'm done, but I already recommend it based on the first 50 pages.
This morning I'm headed out for breakfast with 2 girlfriends. I happily chose our destination at The Seward Cafe which is mere blocks from my house and a Minneapolis historic landmark (probably not really, but it is in my mind and neighborhood). I've already planned what to order but I'm mostly excited for the company. One of the GFs is a friend who moved to Iowa in September and I'm very excited to see her!
I have no plan for today beyond breakfast, which means that after breakfast I'll be planning my day, cleaning the kitchen, working and then working out.
Promises of more exciting, informative and interactive posts this week!
Saturday, December 5, 2009
You are officially added to the "BANISHED" list along with cookies. I'm sure this list will continue to grow, especially right now as I've figured out that while moderation has worked for me at one time, it is not working for me now.
I kid you not when I let you know that in addition to dieting and having quit smoking [two weeks smoke free today!] I am going to try to cut back on sugar in December. December... the month of sugar plums dancing in our heads.
I am being realistic. It's not being cut out completely. I still want to eat yogurt [fructose... naturally occurring sugar] and fruit and put sweetened soy milk in my coffee, but things like cookies in the office kitchen or a tasty looking chocolate bar at the Co-op checkout - those are banned.
That means no more dessert food. Dessert is my favorite thing in the world, so I have to reframe what dessert means for me. Dessert could now mean a banana or a mug of tea, or it could simply mean nothing at all. It will not mean: ice cream, cookies, cereal, etc. Instead, dessert will be a time of day, the time after dinner where I relax and reflect. Dessert may mean I get to finally finish the book I've been reading for 3 months.
I am going to start attacking this, military style, as of today. The meal plan I made for today isn't optional, especially because it only includes breakfast and lunch. I need to DO this.
I need to lose these last
So, I'm dedicated to myself again. I'm safe from my dangerous foods. I'm headed to Step class with my friend "other Nicole" and then today the boys and I are headed to the Franklin Frolic and to see Santa and to watch the Holidazzle parade. These are all fantastic distractions and also involve a lot of walking. There are cookies where Santa lives, but it's easy to get away with not having or wanting one because they are ALWAYS dry and gross. Always. Gross.
Tomorrow is going to be a "What I planned vs What I ate" kind of day. Check back tonight for the meal plan and tomorrow you'll get a slew of pictures of what I actually ate.
That sounds less exciting when you type it out.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Another gain. I've put myself back to where I was at the beginning of November and I'm ok with it. I know that I needed some time to discover what life would be like as a non-smoker without having to discover what it would be like as a dieting non-smoker.
I'm ready again, and I've had 2 SPOT on perfectly OP days. I'm excited to be back. I feel amazing, I feel in control, and I'm holding on to this feeling with Kung-Fu grip.
And so, new goals must be made and carried out through the next week of the No Mo' Potato Challenge. Goals, or TOTS (Tasks of Total Steadfastness), to keep my eyes on the prize.
TOTS for the week of 12/2-12/8
- Track Everything. This has been a great goal for me, and I'm happy I've been able to comply. Even when I was tracking HUNDREDS of points over my limits for the week, I was at least conscious of each bite and looking over these records has actually helped me recognize and correct patterns. So, tracking is key.
- STOP at 21. I have definitely gotten in the habit of over planning my days. Sure, I work out a lot, I have a lot of APs, but they get burned through quick. I need to stick to my meal plan, and rearrange if I have a slip up. I am truly FOLLOWING the WW program this week for the first time in weeks. I will stick to my points.
- SWEAT. I don't need a set number of days. I promise only to work my hardest when I decide to be active, which lately has been every day, sometimes multiple times a day. Fitness raises my self-awareness and always leaves me feeling extremely self-satisfied and proud. I need those feelings right now and I'm happy to earn them through hard work.
- Stay Smoke Free!
- Blog. Get ready for a few doses of "What I Planned vs What I Ate," my favorite food accountability project complete with pictures.
Next Wednesday I WILL see a loss on the scale, it is not an option. This is the outcome I want, so I will put in the hard work and make the correct choices to get me there. Just you wait and see...
In the meantime, please read this really fantastic post that came through my blogroll today. What I wouldn't give to feel so in control...
The whole idea is giving me my own for Christmas - the celebration of cookies (always my downfall). What would a cookieless Christmas look like?
I reached all of my TOTS this week! Let's review...
TOTS for the Week of 11/25-12/1
- Track Everything.
- SWEAT 6 days a week.
- Plan Tomorrow's Meal Plan Today.
- Stay SMOKE FREE!
I did all those things.
I tracked everything... all the way into the negatives (by a lot).
I sweat 6 days, and three of those days I sweat twice. I mean SWEAT. I worked my ass out this week. Genuinely. I'm hoping the sheer amount of physical activity will allow me to maintain rather than gain again. Fingers are crossed.
I planned tomorrow's meal plan at night. I really only followed the plans from Breakfast to Lunch, but I gave it an honest shot.
Stayed smoke free!
So.. I'm going to hold off until later tonight to reveal the TOTS for this week. I need to see what the scale says at my meeting tonight before I can be sure to add or subtract a few of my goals.
I know it takes 21 days to form a habit, is that also how long it takes to break one? I think after my 21st day of not smoking, I won't be able to make excuses any longer. I'd like to stop making them sooner, but truly, these are automatic responses. I'd rather toss dark chocolate into my body than ruin my lungs any longer. At least dark chocolate has anti-oxidants......
Did you make goals for this week? Give me some ideas!