Sunday, May 31, 2009
It kind of snowballed from there, without any exercise.
Today is Sunday, a new day, a new start. I've only "screwed up" one day this week, and I'm hopeful that if I pick up the pace, I should still be able to see results.
I am mostly finding it rough to make time for exercise... like honest dedicated exercise time. I am being VERY active, riding bikes and walking everywhere. I even rode all over downtown on Friday in high heels, which was a new one for me. I don't do that often. I brought little slippers in my bike bag in case I found it to be impossible, but mostly it was completely fine.
I need to plan my next few days of meals to avoid a day like yesterday and I need to get my butt moving today. That's that.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Today, an open letter to my legs.
You've carried me through this lifetime. Healing yourself after tattered abuse climbing trees as a child by relaxing on top of cool damp grass in the hot sun. You've carried me through so many phases of life; remaining silent and dormant as you sat crossed in your Ann Taylor under a desk at the Mortgage company to the Chuck Taylors of waiting tables at the Pizza Joint. You only slightly complained as your load continued to gather, knees screaming under the added weight. You've proven your strength, your endurance as you guide me through this particular journey. Sustaining hours of squats and sprints.
No one would describe you as "killer," Legs, but to me you are the ultimate. You power my bicycle, you dance with me, and you are the very reason I can play "airplane" with Eli even still as he now weighs over 50lbs.
I'm proud as I continue to see more and less of you, Legs. The definition in your quads, the heart shape of your calves, the reawakening of your kneecaps after years of a fatty folded shade. You were so brave when you made your debut in shorts. Not just shorts, but the shortest shorts ever made. You thought, "Well, it's been 10 years since I've worn a pair, I might as well go all out." And the world didn't collapse. Mothers didn't cover their daughters eyes. No one went blind. Instead, you got a whistle on Washington Avenue. Nice job, ladies.
I don't thank you enough. I'm especially thankful you were able to help me out in San Francisco - walking and biking up and down some insane hills. You really pulled through for me. You took the brute of the work and allowed me to enjoy my time with Justin with very little (but still some) whining and complaining.
You know what, Legs? I'm going to get you a massage. I promise. You've earned it.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I'm also happy to report that according to my home scale, I only managed to gain about 2lbs. I'm ecstatic about this, since I've gained 5lbs in certain weeks where I chose to have strawberries for dessert instead of ice cream.
Tonight I am headed to Flex Appeal to meet with Erin to conduct an interview for the cleaning position. Hopefully I'll get it and I'll be extremely excited about that as well. That's at 5pm, my WW meeting is at 6:30pm, I'm hoping to do both.
Today is my first day back to work after more than a week off, so I'm only writing this short entry, but I promise we'll be back to struggles as usual sometime around 7pm tonight when I realize that counting points and watching what I eat is hard (again).
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I decided that since I'm missing my meeting today to opt for Happy Hour with the ladies, I better check in here, just so I don't get too lost. The topic of the meeting tonight is supposed to be Metabolism, and I'm just not sure that my leader knows enough about it to tell me something I don't know. I love her, but her exercise is walking and nothing else.
To be honest, I tend to avoid any of the meetings that have to do with activity or exercise. Because my group is so incredibly vocal, I get extremely frustrated to hear about the level of activity of the other women (and men) that helps them to have "huge losses." Like... climbing 4 flights of stairs, or walking a 1/2 mile, or doing yoga.
I know I shouldn't compare myself to these other people, but it's very frustrating to BUST YOUR ASS 5 days a week and remain consistent and/or gain on the scale - for the last 6 months.
However, I feel that something is finally catching up, because despite my poor eating habits for the last few days, I managed to squeeze out a loss!! OF AN ENTIRE POUND!
The second good thing happening, or at least hopeful thing happening, is that I was very anxious and worried this last week about having to discontinue my pole classes. They're simply too expensive. I had proposed a loan to my sister so that I could purchase an unlimited 6 month pass, which would cut the cost of the classes down significantly, and I'd also be able to try a lot of new classes that I haven't gone to simply because of the cost. She considered it for a long time, but eventually said no, which is totally fine and reasonable.
However, yesterday, when I was signing in to Power Pole Fitness, I noticed a sign at the end of the desk broadcasting that Flex Appeal was looking for 2 cleaning ladies to fill shifts on Monday and Thursday respectively in exchange for an unlimited pass. This would be 2 hours, every Monday afternoon in exchange for the pass. That is like an 80 dollar value if I made it to 4 classes per week. $40 dollars an hour is nothing to sneeze at!
I really hope that works out. I filled out an employment application, which I had a hard time with because I haven't filled one out since I was about 17 years old. I also topped it with a small letter explaining the situation and how reliable I am, etc etc.
Cross your fingers for me, otherwise, I won't be pole dancing much longer.
I really hope that's not true, because it has been such a gift to be able to enjoy exercise again because I can perform it in an unconventional way that simultaneously makes me feel strong and sexy.
Monday, May 11, 2009
I'm actually ok with it, and I intend to step it up as far as activity this week before I leave for San Francisco.
I wanted to stop by the blog and simply warn you all that I won't be doing much blogging for the next two weeks, most likely starting today.
You can, however, expect a whirlwind of entries when I get back from Vacation around the 26th.
Good Luck to you all! (and me as well!)
Saturday, May 9, 2009
It has been 2 days since my last binge-fession. Yesterday was Justin's birthday. I swear WW, I was completely OP (on plan) until we reached our dinner destination, The Malt Shop. I arrived with good intentions, but I allowed my childhood favorites to consume me and push you out. Within 45 minutes I managed to consume half of a cheeseburger, 9 cottage fries, 1/4 cup of cottage cheese, 1/2 a turkey club sandwich and 20 oz worth of 2 flavors of malts. It didn't end there, however, as I had 3 Swedish fish and a handful of popcorn whilst dropping Eli off with my Mom so that we could go out and binge further. At La Belle Vie I consumed 1.5 sugary cocktails and then on to The Town Hall Brewery where further indulgences occurred.
For these, and all my other binges, I am sincerely sorry.
I really am. I am NOT going to let this ruin my week, but it does always make me nervous when I have NO flex points going into the week. It's literally only my 3rd day. I have technically 5 days until Weigh In. I want(ed) this to be a good loss. A good loss before I leave for San Francisco and gain - guiltless.
Only now, it will be FULL of guilt, because I haven't earned it yet.
Today is a new day. I am going to stay on track.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Egg Beater Scrambles + Turkey Bacon and Brussel Sprout Hash + Whole Wheat English Muffin and Sugar-Free Apricot Preserves = 6.5 points
Thursday, May 7, 2009
It's the beginning of my new week and I'm extremely excited. I had an excellent meeting last night where I lost .4lbs. Normally I would preface that by saying "It's not much, but..." Not today. I'm elated at the idea that the scale both moved and moved in the right direction.
Our topic was about Positive Self Talk, which is something that I have a hard time with. Even when I'm celebrating my accomplishments (like a .4 lb loss) I usually try to balance it with something just a tiny bit negative so as not to appear to be bragging.
However, Diane (leader) went on to explain that our thoughts directly dictate our actions, so I want to proclaim that I LOST .4 POUNDS! I did it! And I will do it again.
I would love to ramble about the meeting topic, but I think that Bitch-Cakes did such a nice job summing it up.
There are a number of reasons I am proud of my performance last week. Despite 2 days of flubs, I managed to get 41 APs, which is amazing for me. When I first began Weight Watchers and was extremely committed, it was not abnormal for me to get 45 APs each week for a month. However, I also weighed close to 200lbs, so it was much easier to burn calories than it is now, 50lbs lighter.
I also didn't let those 2 flubs ruin my entire week.
I tried a new class and it kicked my ass. Literally. My ass hurt, along with my arms, shins, quads, shoulders, arms, etc. I'm totally going to go back. That class is a powerhouse and will absolutely whip me into the shape I want to be in.
I tracked everything, all week long. Even when I got myself into the red (again...). This habit of holding myself accountable has also helped me to realize the trigger foods that set me on a downward spiral. Armed with this knowledge, I'm better equipped to say no to those things and stay on track.
My goals for this week are very simple. Plan, Track, Exercise. The first 3 days of this week are planned as far as meals and exercise, and I intend to sit down tonight and make up a grocery list to complete the week.
Best possible scenario is that I will see the same number on the scale this coming WI as I did when I weighed myself Tuesday evening. With that, I will earn another 5lb star and it will be my THIRD 10% goal.
Risotto Primavera with Parboiled Asparagus (drizzled in oil, lemon zest and parmesan) = 5 points
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
That's a VERY large loss. I highly doubt that's going to stick through tomorrow, plus I had just sweat my butt off in a very difficult class.
Just knowing that the scale is MOVING though, that is such a huge relief.
Thursday is my 1.5 year anniversary of recommitting to Weight Watchers. What a wonderful decision that was.
Monday, May 4, 2009
I forgot about a few things I ate last night.
Consider this a really big OOPS.
I am officially 17.5 points in the red for the week, with 3 days to make up for it.
It's really disheartening to think that ONE day/night can totally ruin everything, but that's reality.
The game plan is to step up the activity (which I'm not really sure I can do!) and try to create a small deficit to make up the difference.
If I gain, I know why.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Cucumber, Tomato and Cheese Sandwich + Chickpea Veggie Salad = 5 points
+1.25 mile jog
+10 sets of "Killers/Suicides" on the basketball court
+1.25 mile jog
+15 minutes Hoop Dance in the yard
Yes! It feels awesome to have 5 APs before 10am on a Saturday, and also to know there's more to come. I'm waiting on my breakfast now, water is boiling for some high fiber oatmeal. I'm thinking I'll take Jack (my dog) to the Minnehaha Dog park for a while so he has a chance to run around in miles upon miles of wooded trail while I walk in this beautiful weather and catch up on podcasts.
I'm still feeling extremely excellent about this week, even though last night I had a bit of a lapse and ate the remainder of Justin's pistachio gelato which ranks in at 6 points a serving. (I ate 9 points worth!)
This afternoon I have plans to stop at the grocery store for sandwich fixings since we're out of deli cut turkey and tomatoes. I'd like some avocados and sprouts to thicken things up a bit and I need baby carrots and strawberries as well.
I hopped on the scale this morning "just for fun" and it definitely was. I hope I can keep this up, because if I do, I'm in for quite a rewarding Weigh In!