- I've learned to do tricks on a trapeze, thus conquering a small fear of dangling from ceilings (or the sky, or a mountain) and also looking extremely cool in the process.
- I've been drinking water like a maniac, which was one of my goals for the year.
- I had the courage to leave a relationship that just wasn't working even though it's a difficult thing to do.
- I found a fantastic apartment the next day.
- I've reunited with 3 friends I hadn't seen it what felt like forever, and have just generally been more social in a way that does not overwhelm me.
- All of these accomplishments prove I've learned to both appreciate and listen to myself and my own needs, as well as overcome the fear of being uncomfortable.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I've been avoiding you.
I'm just being honest.
I think having a blog when you're going through something traumatic like ending a super long term relationship is like have a telephone when you've downed a bottle of tequila.
I had a really fantastic conversation yesterday surrounding the weird things we do when we we truly believe we can't do something ourselves. It's all self-medication, short cuts and just generally sweeping things under the rug. I'm through with all of it, hence all of the change in my life that you get to read about. It's just hard. Things that are worth doing are hard; they're also the most rewarding, educational, and they feel really good to celebrate.
Oh... P.S. About self medicating: I'm smoking again.
Sorry I let you down kids. It was a good run, but I honestly can't handle all of it at once, and because I'm eating well again, back to exercise, but now venturing out on my own as a single girl, something had to collapse. I'll try again when I'm ready.
Upcoming exciting stuff: Jen at priorfatgirl.com is gathering up any MN healthy/weight loss/fitness/crazies bloggers for a meet up. I'll be there.
In food news, having Joanna be my accountable buddy with our Weight Watcher's TRACK ATTACK game, I did really well. I'm still not weighing in, so I won't know how well, but I'm just filled with a general sense of pride for staying the course through this week. That's pretty impressive.
Today, after work, Jessica and I are headed to Bikram for her very first class. I scared the bejesus out of her last night when I was telling her what she needed to bring and some of the regulations of the practice. I'm really good at ruining exciting things with too much information.
Can you believe it's 2 weeks (well.. 13 days) in to January already? Weren't we just sharing resolutions and drinking champagne? (Well, you were. I was asleep.) I'm feel pretty accomplished already this year and here's why:
What is your proudest accomplishment this year?